I let my head get the better of me, started listening to all the doubts and fears (I've never had kids to raise. Can I do this? Would I be a good role model and influence in a child's like? Can I handle the tough times that are sure to come with this decision? Am I "mom" material? etc...). Instead of listening to God, I started listening to myself and trying to do it all on my own again. I know better, but I do it anyway. The last few days I've prayed about it and asked God to help me move forward and follow His will and not my own. This morning someone sent me a link to some podcasts by Joyce Meyer on her series called "Confronting Fear". I've only listened to the first two parts so far, but here are the messages I'm getting:
"God wants us to be bold and courageous!"
"Get out of your own head and be still. Listen to what God is moving you to do."
"Go forward! Say, 'I'm going to do what God told me to do!'."
"Anything God asks you to do, He will give you the strength to do, if you just don't run away from it!"
Thank you Father! I get the message, loud and clear. We serve an awesome God, and He never leads us down a path without being by our side. God doesn't call the equipped, He equips the called. Father please equip me for this calling! Amen.
